Honestly, I’m starting to feel tired. Tired of my everyday life. Tired of my addictions.

I want to make something new out of my life. I want to do something I like, something I know that’s going to be worth the trouble. But I don’t know what that thing is. I just don’t know… I love life. I love animals, I love studying them. I know I’m in the right branch of the natural sciences for what I love, but…will I get a job doing what I like? In this country? In this world? In the middle of this crysis? Learning what I have to learn? I honestly don’t think so…but then, what should I do?

I want to work. I want to earn some money to become a little more independent, besides, that’d be a way of doing something new and learning to like work. But who would give me a job? To ME? I can’t even drive, yet. And today I saw this kid, my age, getting some money to pay some policeman because of something he did wrong with his car, but it wasn’t even that bad. Not very exciting, is it?

I’m tired of going to school and listening to boring teachers and doing boring stuff. Honestly, the things we do aren’t that boring, but the ‘magic’ is gone after we finish them. Ooo, pretty colors in a glass. Now I know what it is and I can’t even do it when and where I want to, so it’s not fun anymore. Ooo, modifying living cells! NOW I know how it’s done, and it’s not even fun! Ooo, opening a squid in a half and seeing its ‘brain’. Not fun and disgusting. And I’ve done much more. More experiments, more things we HAVE TO do if we want to have a diploma. What then? Who’s going to give us a job? What are we going to work with? Too many questions, too many stupid, useless and dreamy answers.

Oh I can’t close my eyes and make it go away!

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Relax, I won’t write a corny first post.

I’m Tsu (that’s how you will know me, at least for a while), I am from Portugal and I’m studying Biology somewhere.

I created this blog because I wanted to write about what’s in my mind. I want to write about anything I think of. No fear of what people might think. No care  for any kind of errors in my writings. Any language I want (between Portuguese and English). And as many ‘emoticons’ as I want. >>

I’ll post anytime soon. I hope.

Take care and have fun.